ugh

So, this past week a close family friend passed away so I have lost all control and have eaten like crazy. And sadly it shows with a two pound gain. I am such an emotional eater and I absolutely hate it. I do not know how to break that cycle and I do not know how to find balance in my life. I really need it. I feel burned out on all ends. I do not know how to bring the focus back on myself. I do not know how to make myself a priority. I do not think that my motivation is strong enough to put in the hardwork that it needs to take to lose the weight. I keep setting the alarm early to do exercises, but then I turn it off. I have the intention of bringing healthy food to work, but then I eat out. I am just at the end of my rope.
This morning, I got up and did my exercise video and the kids were climbing all over me and getting into trouble, so I had to stop it before the end to take care of them. The kicker is that it was my husbands day off and he just laid in bed (wide awake) and did nothing. Yet, he is the first to complain that I have not lost the baby weight. I hate this.